The Office B.

These days are slow. 

Were getting into a rhythm of sleeping/eating/pumping/gym time.

Its nice to have a little best friend that is more and more like me every day.

I used to be the office B... (not a nice B word either)

I was a hard hitting-fake it till you make it-take my attitude and deal with it... "B"

I mean... people liked me well enough. But man, was I uptight sometimes.

I like to think I was pretty good at my job, and I worried I would never be able to let it go. 

I enjoyed working. Weird, I know.  

I think it helped quell my anxiety sometimes... 

I wasn't in the "Service" industry.

most people I dealt with here on the phone or people I worked with every day. 

I sat behind a desk or in a meeting room taking notes. 

 I identified myself with this job that I had. I liked being appreciated and told I was doing a good job. I liked climbing up the corporate ladder and making money. I liked getting educated about my work and moving forward with it.

 I genuinely liked my job. it was almost an escape for me sometimes... and it helped keep my "control freak" under control... because... well, I could be a neat/control-freak. 

Then this happened. 

And I went through this journey

(All of these are proudly taken in the women's bathroom at work...)

ITS A BOY!

Until my last day of work!

Boy was I ready to be done at that point!

my little work team!

When I was on mat leave, I struggled with being unproductive... I organized my pantry and made a budget and wrote emails to work trying desperately to keep that part of me alive. 

But when this happened...

Things changed a little. 

When I brought Easton by my office for the first time

My boss pointed out how surprised he was that motherhood suited me so well. 

I was relaxed.

Less of a "B" and more of an... "M?"

Dont get me wrong, my neat-control-freak is still hard to manage sometimes

my anxiety is still peaked when I have to leave the house.

But I like being an M alot better than being a 

B. 

We will decide when the time comes, whether I will go back to work or not.

But for now im taking my M job very seriously. 

And loving it.

xx - r

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