This and That

Mommy confession: 

My favourite part of going to the gym, and most of the reason I'm so diligent, is because I can leave my 2 kids in child minding for 2 hours while I sweat, then shower, then get myself ready for the day without a baby crying in my ear or a toddler sitting on my feet. Seriously… the other day I threw the boys both into child minding, skipped the workout and sat in the steam room for half an hour before I showered, took my time getting ready and felt refreshed enough to pick up the hooligans and take them home to face the rest of the day. some days are like that. Its okay… right? 

.WEIGH IN. 

My weigh in this week was deffinately not what I expected for my first week back at the gym, I worked my CAN off and only lost 0.4 pounds at my weigh in. 

I was a little dissappointed to say the least. I didn't even get out of the 170s! (By 0.8 pounds) and I worked harder than I have in... Well, almost a year! 

And I'm trying really hard to not get discouraged, its a hard balance between eating enough to make milk to breastfeed, and eating enough to lose weight too. I guess all I can do it keep working out, keep eating right, keep feeding my baby and hope it will keep SLOWLY (emphasis on a big eye roll there) coming off. 

Current weight 170.8

My goal by December 1 is 160. 

And my goal by the new year is 150.

As the numbers get lower, I know it is going to be harder to get the pounds off, and as winter hits its going to be hard to not eat my whole house instead of going to the gym. 

But i'll power through. I'm blessed to have a sister who is a GURU in the fitness industry and has helped me get into the gym without breaking the bank and motivated me with her amazing bod. 

In Hud news:

Hes (kind of) rolling over!

Im happy with this because he HATES tummy time, like, either lays there like a dead fish or squawks until I come roll him over. 

Other than that my little 2 month old is adorable… I mean seriously. 

We have our 2 month checkup tomorrow and will see how breastfeeding is treating him! I stress sometimes that he is losing weight again because the control freak in me that doesn't know how much he is getting at a feeding thinks its not enough. We will see!

Oh, and he's losing his hair.

I knew it was coming… but I get sad every morning I find little blonde hairs on his mattress. 

In Easy news, 

He got a haircut!

I woke up one morning and just said "T…lets cut it all off" I think it looks adorable.

Easy also has a checkup tomorrow. He gets the results of his hearing test, and the ECHO and EKG we had done last week. 

Of course I'm a little nervous, but I feel confident that everything is fine. E's a normal kid that is just quiet with a little innocent murmur. He's my little boy and he's perfect. 

But keep your eye out for an update either way!

xx-r

Successes and Failures

This last week or so has been filled with ups and downs.

Up - hudson started smiling this adorable little half smile with the pirate-eye squint.

Another up… but more of a side-note

How different do my boys look? These were both taken at a week old

Easton:

And Hudson

I am so excited to see how they grow up to look, its one of the best parts of parenthood is watching your kids grow up change and become their own people.. and heck I've only been doing it about 18 months!

Down - At Easy's 18 month checkup the pediatrition informed us that the words "carrrrr" and "ga ga" would not cut it for where his speech development should be, he even used the words "severely delayed" and scary words like  "deaf" and "autism signs" - who does that? Easton isn't autistic, the pediatrition agreed with that by the end of the appointment, but Easton is going for a hearing test on Monday to rule out any hearing problems. Once any hearing problems are ruled out, we start the long process of speech therapy, which I know is not uncommon for my family, or for boys in general. To be honest? I'm not worried. I know he will get there and for now, we understand each other. It can be a little heartbreaking when he can't tell me what he wants and ends up in a screaming heap on my kitchen floor, but we're both learning. 

Up... And down? - we're finally getting an EKG and ultrasound done on Easton's heart murmur, the doctor is confident it's innocent, and again I'm not worried... But it's always good to check... Those little hearts are important! 

Isn't he precious?!?

 Up - We had an amazing thanksgiving long weekend, and even ended up getting some family photos snapped by my awesome sister in law from Jayden Campbell Photography! I just took them home and edited them 

 (click HERE to check out her Facebook page)

Down - I had my six week follow up with my OB this week and I need to do some physio, but she cleared me for exercise that didn't bother my condition... And I would know what bothered me. Another down? As of right now, I can't run. (Ouch)

Up - I lost 2.4 pounds this week! Since I started weight watchers 4 weeks ago, I've lost 10 pounds! The combo of watching what I eat, and breastfeeding is really helping me I think, but I still have a long way to go. - current weight, 171.2.

And one more BIG UP - Huds is officially a breast fed baby! After his tongue clip, within a week I was able to drop the sheild but I was still pumping and supplementing after almost every feed, another week went by and I was only supplementing some feeds and for the last week I haven't really had to pump at all unless I want to because we're going out somewhere! 

To say I'm ecstatic is an understatement. I sought out help and pushed for this breastfeeding relationship. I learned from previous mistakes and have had amazing support from friends family and even total strangers. Breast feeding isn't for everyone, but I wanted it to be for me, and I honestly didn't know if I would get that opportunity. I'm thrilled in a - "cried when the LC told me I didn't need to come back because my 7 week old is gaining weight at a higher than average rate" kind of way. My big guy is 11 pounds! 

Ups and downs are just par for the course these days. I wish I could blog more, but busy is good. 

Busy is fun and crazy and hilarious most of the time. 

Busy is my life, and I'm getting used to it. 

xx - r

Weigh In Thursday!

Well, its that day of the week again.

I went to weight watchers tonight

down exactly 2 pounds! 

I weighed in at 173.6

so in 3 weeks I am down 7.8 pounds. 

I am happy with 2 pounds. I feel like I'm eating CONSTANTLY, and I'm glad that my body is thanking me for that by steadily getting back to a healthy weight. 

I unfortunately have no pictures on this post… it feels kind of… naked. 

But I'm hoping after thanksgiving I will have plenty!

xx - r

Snack Time!

Okay guys, 

I HAVE to share this amazing, high protein snack I discovered via Pinterest (of course) 

Ta-da!

I call it... Well, I don't know what to call it... Amazing Apple dip? I've been too busy eating it to think about it.

Since on the new weight watchers plan fruit is free, I've deffinately been getting into the fruit of the season... Apples! 

I stumbled on this apple dip, tried it last night... And I'm hooked! I made a big batch today to dip into when I want to snack. It's not low In points, but I'm willing to spend some extra snack points on this, everything In it is good for me! (And baby Hud)

Here's how you make it:

One part vanilla Greek yogurt

One part peanut butter (I used the whipped peanut butter it's amazing!)

And 1/2 part honey! 

Just mix them all together and you have an amazing Snack that is super high in protein!

I just thought I would share! 

xx -r

Weigh in Thursday and *my boys*

Today was my Weight watchers meeting. 

I weighed in at 175.6 - down 1.6 pounds. 

I've lost just over 5 pounds in 2 weeks, which I feel pretty good about. Im not at the point where Im genuinely feeling good about myself… But... I'm getting there. 

Until then, I'm just enjoying these boys.

THIS boy is the busiest boy alive. 

Every day is a battle with this stinker. he's…. busy. I don't know how else to put it, he's just SO. BUSY. HOWEVER he is also adorable. He gives the best hugs and cuddles. its just that. yeah… He's busy. 

And Hudsy just…

Is. 

I forgot how awesome it is having a child that cant move away when you put him down. 

That may be why he has more pictures this post.. besides the fact that he's so adorable and kissable… 

He sits still long enough to take a picture. Easy is about 2 feet out of the frame, or behind the camera trying to break it AT ALL TIMES.

Despite having a cold, which is so depressing for a newborn because there really isn't anything you can do besides sit up all night listening to them gag on snot…

he's good. 

He continues to gain weight. he weighed in at 10 pounds 3 ounces at his last checkup!

I am getting better at the whole 

"feed and then pump and then sometimes give him a bottle and then pump and then sometimes just feed and don't pump"

Its still exhausting. just a little less exhausting as it becomes more daily routine. 

And it's all for this guy, and I'm okay with that. 

Look how fat he is!

xx - r